Having been an avid gamer from the age of like 7 i have always played games in my free time from the old BBC micro to the xbox360. i always used to play on my PC as well on games like counter strike source and battlefield 2 and 2142 but then i stopped and started going out more then due to my own insanity i turned nut's and started having panic attacks when i went out thus reducing me to driving and being the dd every night we went out i didn't mind this as it was the only way i felt comfortable going out. but then i met "Cherise" my current girlfriend of 6 months so far. although i haven't quite got over my attacks i can now go places with more confidence than ever. but now I'm having a laps into insanity again and i find myself turning towards games again. immersing myself into a fake reality makes me feel like I'm in control luckily i don't think i will ever fully integrate myself into this fake world but its a comfort blanket.
The world i refer to is that of warcraft, World Of Warcraft, this game allows me to be who i want to be with out fear of being hurt physically or mentally. If I'm being bullied i can log off. If I'm getting beat up i can wait to resurrect my self. sad i know but true.
hopefully my girlfriend will keep me balanced so i don't hide in this fake world.
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